being down is good

being down...is somehow good...
sometimes
times? they will all end
inevitable
don't run away, accept
at ease

I thought some goth orgy would be the refreshment for the readers :)

Fuck Jul, Fuck Nytår

Dear conformist readers, i would like to say out loud "fuck christmas!"...not because i am not a part of it, because of the fucking closed markets, closed every kinda shit here in sønder-fucking-borg! i dont give a flying fuck about your family-once-in-a-fucking-year reunions or drinking gløgg or whatever damn perversion you are onto...you fucking hypocrites...but oh yes, i give a fuck about the companies who still didnt fucking reply to my applications...fuck you, too! fuck you hard in the ass! you assholes, at least reject me in the first place so i'll know what to do...the whole thing is fucked up man...owww, fuck....so really messed up...shiit...ooh ja, I kan godt kneppe jeres morer...

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Ustad gunumuzde yasayacaki ki..ahhh

embrace nothingness

...time, the concept
person, the subject
watch the experiment
each fucking second, a countdown
...to self-annihilation
embrace nothingness
voices in your head, they tell the truth
you will not be better, everything will not be allright
open up, watch
can you see?
the transcendental of singularity?
you have always been...

find your wall, cry out loud
for the glamorous old days
that have never been

wake up, wake up, wake up
(alarm buzzing)
ignore, ignore, ignore
(someone calling)
pick up, pick up, pick up

all the tiny moments that are in the life
make tiny small plaesurettes
light a cigarette, shot an espresso
inhale mortally

solve your school tasks, be a good boy
maybe a night-out
have some shots, drink some booze
flatter a girl, got rejected
sleep disturbed,
return 0;

The Going on of the Blog

...keeping a blog? what kind of fucked up blog is this? shall we analyse? i don't know. first off i started without a goal, which is quite ok with me, 'cos i hate fucking goals...such as "life goals" and bullcrap...i feel like i owe an apology to the readers for some junk that has been here...that was just because i wanted to keep the blog "colorful, cheerful, easy writing" everyone-else-scheisse...

this blog is stupid a some point, since i dont promote it...(yes i tried some http links for sharing, but i dont see the point anymore)...well it is not being promoted because i want random people to comment, not some other ass-licking-douches to comment just to leave comment...as i said, i barely linked to this blog...also it is 2 years old, my memory can be faulty...

i fucking dont know why the hell i write all these stuff (this blog), since barely someone comments...as i check the statistics of the blog, i am right...either referring sites or rapidshare...fuck the world is cheap, i am corrupted and i killed my fucking neighbor....

is the content for the past or the future? who is reading? 99% possibility no one...

...but rises the same blog...it'll be kept up...no reason; but some "goals":

*i'll author my own articles (if you call them so, shitty fragments of scrap)
*i'll still give more http download links etc....it is because if i listen to an album and have some time to share it, i simply do it...it is nice for all of you cheap people like me to see what i listened to...bah, download or not...anyways those links wont be so many...(i suppose)
*i wont put no more marketing-blog-style picture and easy readings...at least i would say i'll try not to put...the web is full of that crap anyways...

hail satan!
(dear happy woodland christmas critters)

----turkce yazilar----
kim kime dum duma...kafama estikce turkce de yazmaya devam edicem (edecegim evladim)...

Strange era of communication

i came to realize our privacy is being raked recently. the times of icq with only your buddies has past...now you have way more people on your instant messenger(s) and facebook (or facebook-alike sites)...i was constantly blocking people whom i dont want to talk to and keeping "apper offline" most of the time...today a guy just caught me on gtalk whom i have blocked on w. live messenger, and started to complain and blah blah...
on facebook i have many so called "friends"...they just appear there...no message, no nothing...i mean what the fuck? at least i sent messages like "hi how are you?" to those weird people that i barely know from here and there, whom only said a dry "hi" to me...either they send only and only 1 message back or no answer at all...wtf is happening i really dont like...
or should i talk about the fucking people who only chats with you whenever they need big favors?!

we are going to live "1984" soon...hope the humanity will fall...

ben bir essegim!

kimi zamanlar o kadar mal oluyor ki insan ne derece buyuk bir eseklik yaptigini kavrayamiyor, saksisi basmiyor! evet ben bir essegim!

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