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NEYZEN TEVFİK

Ustad gunumuzde yasayacaki ki..ahhh

embrace nothingness

...time, the concept
person, the subject
watch the experiment
each fucking second, a countdown
...to self-annihilation
embrace nothingness
voices in your head, they tell the truth
you will not be better, everything will not be allright
open up, watch
can you see?
the transcendental of singularity?
you have always been...

find your wall, cry out loud
for the glamorous old days
that have never been

wake up, wake up, wake up
(alarm buzzing)
ignore, ignore, ignore
(someone calling)
pick up, pick up, pick up

all the tiny moments that are in the life
make tiny small plaesurettes
light a cigarette, shot an espresso
inhale mortally

solve your school tasks, be a good boy
maybe a night-out
have some shots, drink some booze
flatter a girl, got rejected
sleep disturbed,
return 0;

The Going on of the Blog

...keeping a blog? what kind of fucked up blog is this? shall we analyse? i don't know. first off i started without a goal, which is quite ok with me, 'cos i hate fucking goals...such as "life goals" and bullcrap...i feel like i owe an apology to the readers for some junk that has been here...that was just because i wanted to keep the blog "colorful, cheerful, easy writing" everyone-else-scheisse...

this blog is stupid a some point, since i dont promote it...(yes i tried some http links for sharing, but i dont see the point anymore)...well it is not being promoted because i want random people to comment, not some other ass-licking-douches to comment just to leave comment...as i said, i barely linked to this blog...also it is 2 years old, my memory can be faulty...

i fucking dont know why the hell i write all these stuff (this blog), since barely someone comments...as i check the statistics of the blog, i am right...either referring sites or rapidshare...fuck the world is cheap, i am corrupted and i killed my fucking neighbor....

is the content for the past or the future? who is reading? 99% possibility no one...

...but rises the same blog...it'll be kept up...no reason; but some "goals":

*i'll author my own articles (if you call them so, shitty fragments of scrap)
*i'll still give more http download links etc....it is because if i listen to an album and have some time to share it, i simply do it...it is nice for all of you cheap people like me to see what i listened to...bah, download or not...anyways those links wont be so many...(i suppose)
*i wont put no more marketing-blog-style picture and easy readings...at least i would say i'll try not to put...the web is full of that crap anyways...

hail satan!
(dear happy woodland christmas critters)

----turkce yazilar----
kim kime dum duma...kafama estikce turkce de yazmaya devam edicem (edecegim evladim)...

Strange era of communication

i came to realize our privacy is being raked recently. the times of icq with only your buddies has past...now you have way more people on your instant messenger(s) and facebook (or facebook-alike sites)...i was constantly blocking people whom i dont want to talk to and keeping "apper offline" most of the time...today a guy just caught me on gtalk whom i have blocked on w. live messenger, and started to complain and blah blah...
on facebook i have many so called "friends"...they just appear there...no message, no nothing...i mean what the fuck? at least i sent messages like "hi how are you?" to those weird people that i barely know from here and there, whom only said a dry "hi" to me...either they send only and only 1 message back or no answer at all...wtf is happening i really dont like...
or should i talk about the fucking people who only chats with you whenever they need big favors?!

we are going to live "1984" soon...hope the humanity will fall...

ben bir essegim!

kimi zamanlar o kadar mal oluyor ki insan ne derece buyuk bir eseklik yaptigini kavrayamiyor, saksisi basmiyor! evet ben bir essegim!

NURİ ALÇO GÖTÜRÜYOR...

Uncertainty

A bullet of .45 might be plunged into our heads,
or maybe an orgy in powder dust?
What it seems to be it may not be as it is or it was...
Embracing something maybe you will never know, perhaps
Comprehension?
Could it be comparable to our limited minds?
Should we believe in supreme beings? Or maybe once again we might quit, as well
Obsession, dogma!
What else is inthere? Can you see it? Can you deny an uncertainty?
I won't deny
A river of stars flows and will flow...without paying attention to any actions,
any happening
any occasion
any creation
anything....

Mатрoшка/Cyberslave

92de ilk kez pc ile tanismistim, benim icin o zaman pek bir anlam ifade etmiyordu. evdeki atari 2600'umden tek farki daha janjanli oyunlar oynayabilmemdi. hatirliyorum da ilk pimp up olayi bile vardi la, oyunun adini pek hatirlamasam da. turbo, body modification filan yapabiliyorduk da ne sike derman oldugunu pek cozememistik o zamanlar, oyunda araba gene ayni hizda gidiyordu...ehmmm pardon sevgili okuyucu biraz konus disina ciktik (namik kemal style)...sonralari internet diye bir nane varmis ondan haberdar olduk, sene 96 sanirim ortaokula yeni baslamisim..tabii internet luks o zaman bi de dial-up anuna goyim (allah belani versin turk telekom!)...diskete 1,44 mb boyutunda porno resim yukleyen ve sinifta dagitan aga muamelesi gørmus turlu veledin boy gøsterdigi zamanlardi..peeeh peeeh...[ayrica sonralari atari 2600 tv'nin tupe kaymisti, o zamandan beri tabu gibidir, en son arkadasa vermistim helaline, nostalji mi ne yapacakmis pezevenk, deli oyun tutkum vardi beah o zamanlar, øldurduker simdi onu da el birligi ile]

sonralari (2000 yili) ilk pc'mi almisti babam, deli para domalmistik alete...10 dakikada sayfa sayfa oyun incelemesi okumak veya kaydetme cabalari mi istersiniz, bir tutam mp3 indirmek icin internet neferi mi olmak dersiniz, allah belani versin dial-up...bi de eve gelen fatura da ayri muhabbet tabii...ustune hafiften firca...

ne olduysa broadband internetle tanismamla oldu, oda arkadasim da sagolsun evden yemek ihtiyaci disinda cikmayan zibidiler haline gelmistik...yaldir yaldir inen oyunlar, filmler, mp3'ler...bariz bicimde hapsolmustum...ama oyun da oynuyordum...simdileri ise pek istahim kalmadi oyunlar icin...

hala esiriyim bu siberefeligin ...gerci artik pc basina oturmak pek bir zevk degil eskisi kadar...kesinlikle eskiden daha zevkliydi...yok facebook; ordan poke burdan poke, flickr, bitmek bilmeyen ve ½si moral bozucu okul emailleri, kisisel emaillerim, msn messenger (live oldu simdilerde kaltak da)...

aaaah aaah...eskiden icq vardi, listemdekiler de arkadaslarimdi...kimseyi bloklama ihtiyaci duymazdim...simdi ise listemin yarisi bloklu...garip insanlariz, pardon yaratiklariz...

kendi kendini yok eden/yok etmeye calisan tek canli turu insandir...

kesinlikle pc,internet olayini sorgulayip baskalarina bok atacak degilim, kendim zaten gunde cihanin saatini harciyorum su meretin ønunde...

kafam cok karisik cok...off off

Stuck

stuck all the ways around...
maelstrom, a new expedition
staticly scoping
look deeper
dig the grave
look deeper
light is far away